8/17/09
So I’ve been working my new gig for three weeks now; well, going on three weeks. I am conflicted about the job. On the one hand, freelance work has been slow the last several months and so any work is welcome. I’ve financed several recent shows with credit cards and need to get rid of the debt load–in that sense, the regular paychecks are great. It will also allow me to go to Korea for three weeks in November. Getting dental and, soon, health insurance is a bonus. So too, the day to day work is easy enough: Place jewelry, shoot jewelry, prep file. Rinse, lather, repeat–150 or so times each day.
What I see as the downside is this: I’m feeding into the consumer culture that I have personal qualms about. The photographs I am taking help to sell products that I don’t believe in. I need money, the company needs my skills. I can make photographs of this jewelry that look good. Fine. Beyond that, it is hard to feel like I’m contributing anything positive to society through this job–and maybe making a negative contribution. (Though it is hard to argue with the fact that selling this jewelry employs a good number of people; that is positive.) As my mom said over breakfast at my grandmother’s Sunday, “Sometimes a job is just a job,” but I’m not sure that is any more than an excuse. I feel uneasy–can I lay down belief because I need the money? For the moment, it appears that I can.
Just a couple of weeks ago, Ji and I were doing some shopping in SoHo. She has a gift certificate to Forever 21, so we wandered through. The store has plenty of cheap merchandise–what caught my eye was the jewelry display. It was chock a block full of schlock. Poor quality, ugly–but cheap and plentiful. Someone somewhere makes this. Someone sells it to the store. And, theoretically, someone buys it. Aside from employing people throughout the supply chain, I don’t see how making poor quality products available is a good use of our production capacity as a society or as individuals. What better industry can we turn ourselves towards?
I don’t mean to imply that the jewelry I’m shooting is poor quality–it certainly puts the Forever 21 jewelry to shame–I mean to say only that the job doesn’t seem a socially uplifting endeavor. Maybe that isn’t important. Or maybe it is. At any rate, I’ll still be pushing my personal projects and promoting my freelance business…and shooting 150 baubles a day.